i feel all her love but not all of her attraction
I get too paranoid sometimes, I just wanna let everything out but i’m just being dumb cuz it doesn’t even make sense and I know it so i’m gettin a fuckin headache and fuck i’m tired but I obviously can’t sleep, i’ll just do random shit and bump music, I do have a project to do, yeah that works lmaooo
with that i’m back to workin out lol
kinda scared…
she finds a solution for when i’m awake, and you work your way into my dreams, lol you guys are smart i’ll give you that
yeah she loves me now, no denying that at all, but as she gets older she’s gonna want different things, gonna wanna have fun, not gonna wanna be tied down, gonna wanna be free, the idea of long term is gonna stop being comforting and start being scary, she just doesn’t see it yet, and she’s not going to until the time comes, but give it time, that’s why I think this enlightenment is a curse, I know too much about the human psyche, ignorance is bliss, i’m not goin anywhere cuz my mind’s made up, i’m just gonna cherish the time we have left, this is gonna go away for a while, like it always does, i’m gonna get pulled back into the love we have for each other, i’m gonna look back at this post and say “the fuck was I thinking?” but, it’ll come back, could be days, weeks, months, it’ll be back, tapping on my brain “it’s gonna happen and you know it” you’re probably reading this right now, yeah you, just know that it’s not something you’ve done, you’re great, amazing, perfect, this is just a ghost that comes to visit me from time to time, I wish it would go away but it won’t, just know that I love you, I really really do love you
If I hear correctly she wants to fuck me…wtf lol
